What i think of me.

There was a girl, she had many problems and made a lot of mistakes.
For some reason when the worst things happens,
she still manage to keep a smile on her face.
She seems like if nothing happen.
Shes that strong enough to hold in all the pain and let it all go at the right time.
Reading, writing, playing, and listening has made her things a lil bit better,
Reading stories about God, Vampires, Zombies, Horror, Comedy and Anime.
Writing about her problems, stories, thoughts, feelings, and experience.
Playing, Soccer, basketball, tennis, volleyball, and video games.
Hearing music, people, nature's sounds, screaming from the neighbors, and the News.

A girl that has so many memories that haunt her.
But, shes facing her fears, standing up for herself.
Making sure that she has nothing to bring her down.
Staying strong, doing things she loves.
That's just her personality.
That's who she is.

When someone ruins her day, she tend to stay quiet.
Not saying a single word. Just very silent.
Someone asks what wrong.
She's not going to speak.
She's trying to forget it, but like I said memories haunt her.

Then she goes home, and lets out everything.
Sometimes it's better to just hold it in.
So, her brother, or mom wont say what's wrong.
Instead she lets the blade talk.
Doing all the talking, and all the feeling.
It's easier that way.

She's a very different girl.
I mean good different.
When shes around friend, she's just an amazing and funny person.
Yeah she may not get guys attention cause she doesn't want attention.
She just want to make new friends.
But shes careful cause some friends might betray her.
She lost part of herself, when the worst started happening.

She pretends to be someone she's not.
Cause after all, it's the people who also made her that way
She has a lot of personality.
Funny, amazing, awesome, Loving, personality
and There goes the worst personality
Dark, depressing, suicidal, sad, angry, confused,

She doesn't know what she wants,
She wants someone special to care for her the way she cares for him.
I mean not everybody gets what they want.
But it's hard to not feel something.
Things tend to go different ways.

People just don't understand her, and when they do.
They just get some part, not all.
She has unsolved problems, that keeps coming to her everytime she is happy.
She keeps facing it, trying to ignore it.

But, when she holds in anger
The horribly side of her,
comes and controls her mind and body,
and when all that is released.
She doesn't remember what happened.