Wrong Turn

 What did i do.?? Am i doing the right thing. i have no idea.
I'm ruining someone's life, someone's relationship.
I cant keep doing this, but to me it feels so right.
What's wrong with me. I have to end this.
The guy that wished i was his girlfriend, the guy that loves what i do, just to see a smile on his face.

He's the guy that makes mi smile, have really crazy conversation, and brings me passion.

The wrong thing, is that he has a girlfriend, and his girlfriend is pregnant. I just cant hop in and ruin something that was already whole. I'm not that person.
I'm just helping him deal with the things that is making him unhappy.
But i dont seem to have that answer quite yet.

He tells me that his girlfriend is going to leave him and be the her baby daddy of her other kids.
or, i think thats what he is afraid of.
I honestly dont know..
I took the wrong turn, and had to get involve with someone that already had somebody.

It feels right, cause i know he wants me, more than anything. I just cant do it because he's in a relationship with one of my family member..
Jeee.. i get so afraid.. I feel like crying.. and feel like punishing myself for all the wrong turn i have taken in life.

I told him i cant love him, i cant be with him, but somewhere in the near future we can be something.
He told me he has plans for us, to meet again. i have my hope he was going to say that.

But im only 16... he's like 4/5 older than me..
I cant fix this problem. He's already attach to me..
That wasnt part of the plan.. It was all about helping him in his relationship he has going on. And making them understand each other.

He just has that smile, and the way he looks at me.. The way he touches me, it's that OMG feeling.The way he kisses me. ufff..

In the same time i dont want to stop it, he tells me these things that are planned in the future and im just like, mmmm, im liking where this is going.

even though i should just quit. But honestly im just giving him what he pleases, Giving him what he wants.
this whole situation is just an i dont know..

All i know is that i dont want to stop, but in the same time i have to.

"Sometimes you cant let go of what's making you sad
because it was the only thing that made you happy."